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canary lane

by indigo awning

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prettypattern Everything felt so warm, comforting but also empty and soul crushing

Absolutely amazing album, i'll be listening to it for years i'm so sure of it Favorite track: i miss the woods.
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1.
17 00:55
2.
i walk throughout the birches on the appalachian trail i comfort all the oak trees that the cloud's fellow fell i strain to sight a dogwood with its pus covered tail i sleep with matted heartache and the kiss of ivy veil and the bugs are there and the birds are there i wake to bismuth lake lap and a speedboats strident flare i press my cheek to cotton so the wind's not lonely there i peek above the windbreak and feel my shadow bare but i dont feel like crying cause the hammock stroked my hair and the bugs are there and the birds are there i step to pass the threshold of sacrament dune stair and feel his heavy hand press against my tepid air i open up the doorway and breathe his thickened air i finally feel a dreamscape and it cradles my despair and he lives in there but the woods are there and the bugs are there and the birds are there
3.
the doctor’s under my skin
 and pale water flows through the stone in my eye 
lysergic, I’m opened wide 
and the weight of my gut splits the seam in my core

 and I’m gone 
and I’m gone 

the nurse’s quiet touch 
there’s a cord on my throat, and a cloth on my eyes 
i whisper, the dawn is near
 and the nerves of my lungs shine a beam in the air 

its coming, I wish I could speak 
and I’m gone 
its coming, I wish I could speak now 
 and I’m gone
4.
kissing 04:12
its eyes are made of stone and its mouth of sweat and oil its speaks of god and home and my legs abandon me next and it hates me, and they hate me and it hates me, but it holds me and i press it to my heart and i hold it to my eye i think i feel it kissing up my back the walls and floor are screaming and my mother's voice is far the miasmatic chugging of my hometown's hunger surrounds me and it cuts me, and it fucks me and i hate it, but it loves me i think i feel it kissing up my neck
5.
in shadow cowl 
my body wakes 
and staring up 
 beholds 

 something looking 
 staring wide
 twisted round
 and starving
 there’s a hole 
 in my bed and it’s e’er 
 yawning wider my spirit sinks 
far beneath to the place 
below the bedframe 

my body above
 devoured whole
 and I resigned 
 remain below 

 goodnight moon 
for I with you 
remain for e’er
 in lockstep
6.
(instrumental)
7.
anphivena 06:03
umbra, love from another
 split my body in two 
 ribcage peek through the flesh-gate 
tongue-growth tasting sinew 

penumbra, boiled in zephyr 
wrapped joint twisting in clot 
 skin-wisp, feed me your centre 
 waxing heart-like in rot

 anphivena
 mother of moths 
hover on creedmoor


 umbra, do you believe me 
something growing in you
 maybe feel my own arms

 penumbra, father is gone now 
nothing halting the change
 shaking, feeling it close 

 anphivena
 lover of moths
 covering creedmoor
8.
20 01:11

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canary lane is my diary - a collection of songs written in real time parallel to events in my adolescence, growing up trans and neurodivergent in rural north carolina, raised in a cult.

please listen in the dark, laying down

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released September 29, 2023

piano on Heron - Echorift

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Oncill Montreal, Québec

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aka indigo awning

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